Monday, July 26, 2010
artist retreat at fancyland
this is the 2nd installation i did on the land. the piece is tittle "sever". last fall i was suppose to do a 2 week retreat at fancy land. my mom was in the hospital and it was unclear what was happening, the cancer had hidden in her marrow, she started chemo, and was not absorbing her blood transfusions. the last conversation i had with her was her telling me that the way i could support her was to go to my retreat and make beautiful magical art. she passed 4 days before i was suppose to leave. my plan was to do an installation that would be a continuation of the "mother's blood" series. it was a big prayer for my mom's life to continue for her blood cells to come back healthy. i couldn't tell my mom this, she was a private person and unwilling to sit with how her having terminal cancer effected her children. my art was too intense for her and she didn't want to see it. "sever" is about being cut off from a major force in my life...my mom. moms are a big deal. they are the gates to this world. i feel severed from my life, my energy, my heart, my history, my lineage, etc. this piece feels alive to me. the vines i wrapped are cut poison oak (many years dead) and travel up the tree. i am still sorting out how i emotionally connect to this piece.